Oh for god’s sake, what’s WRONG with me??!!! I have one bad dose of food poisoning 2 days ago and I am, for want of better words, a miserable fuckin bastard ever since!! I mean really, had I NOT been totally successful with evicting the damn parasitic bacteria from my body???!!! Could it be that now, somehow, somewhere, there are a group of highly intelligent bacteria plotting to take over the Fairclough of Emma’s, by first claiming my mind and placing their miniscule yet destructive flag of negativity into my pre-frontal cortex? I mean really, WTF!!!!!
Now I know that I’m allowed to have days like these and that, in fact, they are kind of essential to this whole balanced life malarkey but HOLY BLOODY MALONEY, it kinda friggin sucks when you’re in it, don’t you think??!! But hey, who am I to complain, considering that most of the time I am, in fact, one of those incredibly annoying people who just seem to be happy all the time, soooooo I suppose I had it coming.
Now just on that, I do think it’s only right that I share something with you because I hate to think that a) People may get the wrong impression of me and think that I’m happy all the time (and we wouldn’t want that now would we?!!) b) People may use me being one of ‘those people’ as an excuse to not be one of ‘those people’ themselves and c) Well I just don’t have a c).
**Break to check facebook as received a notification on my iphone – you gotta love timely distractions – especially these kinds!**
OK stop the clock, I’m baaaack! And when I say back I mean back back as in like back to feeling great again! In fact in the last 5 minutes I’ve watched a video (thanks Anne for the Facebook interruption – great video, great timing) for 3 of them (it was 4 minutes but I only needed 3) and bounced off the walls for 2! THIS is what I’m talking about, the whole greatness of the moment and how everything can change in the blink of an eye, quite literally in seconds, if you’re open to it of course.
And I think that’s what I was gonna say before I got beautifully interrupted by the “You are beautiful” video (thanks again Anne). You have to be open to knowing that you don’t have to be miserable in life, you don’t need to be a victim. It’s not a jail sentence that someone has inflicted on you for being a naughty child.
It’s your choice; it’s all your choice.
Yeah of course we sometimes need a helping hand to get back to feeling great again, but isn’t that what friends are for and isn’t that totally in line with the saying that ‘what goes around, comes around”. Be the friend you would love to have.
As for me and how miserable I was when I started this blog (doesn’t 20 minutes fly when you’re having fun), I made a decision a few years ago that if I wanted to feel miserable, angry or anything else negative then I was actually gonna let myself do just that. That’s because, as a general rule, I never used to allow myself to wallow in self pity AT ALL. I was so skilled at turning everything around that it came so naturally to me and most things in life were a breeze (on the surface anyway and in fact I was totally oblivious to what was really happening -- but that’s another story). But too much of anything will eventually end right? WRONG! But actually in this and my case, yes.
If, like me, you’ve had a few drama’s in your life, some of which you’ve not totally made peace with, then yes, eventually that bubble will burst. Reality will come round and smack you in the face like a big fuckin wet fish and believe me, if you pull the elastic band hard enough one way, when you eventually let it go, it’s gonna come right back your way with one hellova clout!!
Hence the anti-depressants’ scenario 5 years ago (Oh you don’t know about that? Well I’ll save that for another day too lol) – although even then, that was exactly the wakeup call I needed! After only 2 weeks I stopped taking the ‘wolf in sheep’s clothing’ dependant drug and used my old trusty friends, positivity and faith (not in a religious way, more in a ‘knowing it’ll all work out’ kinda way), to get myself back on track.
But you see it was all a decision for me back then too, and it was a decision and an opportunity that I had to be open to.
So if you’re feeling down, low or miserable then know that first of all it doesn’t have to last. You’ll have better days and worse days and that’s a fact of life. But the great thing is, if you’re open to it, and if you decide you want to, all of this can just get better and better. Your better days become outstanding and your bad days become bearable and short-lived.
You have 2 things you need to do right now, the FIRST one is to watch this video at least until you start to believe what they’re saying and you have a smile creeping across your face. The SECOND thing you need to do is sign up for my daily emergiser (http://www.emergise.co.uk/daily-emergiser or just fill in the box on the top right hand corner of this page) and no, this isn’t a pitch or anything like that, the thing’s free for god’s sake!! I just know how much people enjoy it, how it motivates them and I know how much love n fun I write them with, so I’m pretty sure that comes across – if you disagree then simply unsubscribe yourself – no-one’s forcing you to receive them!! Only kidding!!! …NO.. actually really do … I’m KIDDING!!!
You’re beautiful…and so are you.
Welcome to 'emergise' and my blog, 'secret diary of a good girl'. Let me introduce myself, my name is Emma Fairclough and I am a good girl. I am a good girl with a twist.
So very true !!! If we don’t allow ourselves to feel miserable every now and then, how can we appreciate what it is like to feel great !!!
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Hope you are ok emma :o) we all have our bad days but then the good days are all the better for it! x
hear, hear! fabulous post and yes, it’s great to allow ourselves to feel flat everynow and again – just as it’s great to allow ourselves to soar whenever the opportunity arises – the perfect balance and you begin to notice the pendulum swinging towards the more time “up” – because i think that’s where our souls feel most at home :)
Hi Emma
Isn’t it so true that what goes around comes around! I am a mad raving fan of your daily emergise for exactly the same reason………..I can’t say how many days I will be in the middle of a situation and ping! it’s you with some very apt words. Many times it has spoken directly to the situation, gave me inspiration or just made me laugh.
Don’t you just love the universe :-)
Hi Anne, It’s always soooo good to hear from such a raving fan as yourself, you’re such a joy :-) Thank you again my friend, and thank you for all your support. The universe rocks baby! (Oh and I added your website to your comment – it appears your forgot ;-) oh and to my blogroll too) x
Thanks for the hear hear munki pants – what a great name! You’re so right, our souls love to be high, and of course so do we – nothing quite like it…:-) Like I said in my post, like you said and to say it again – we also have to get the balance by having the downs as well. We cannot have light without dark, youth without old age, new without old…so bring it on I say! And if you want to be fuckin miserable once in a while then play full out and be fuckin miserable!! If something’s worth doing,it’s worth doing in a big way! :-)
I am Niquita, thank you for your support :-) Today is a goooood day I tell you! Hope yours will be too :-) x
Exactly!!!! It took me a long time to get that Gareth but holy friggin maloney, it was such a wake up call!
I spent my whole life not really allowing myself to feel down, never wanting anyone else to feel down, which is maybe why I’m such a natural helper and giver. I was surrounded by a lot of sadness from a very early age, a shed load of amazing happiness too, but yes sadness…in very beautiful people. But now I understand the meaning of balance. And well let’s just say, I think if I carried on wearing my rose tinted glasses for much longer, not allowing the truth to be set free, I don’t think I would’ve been around for much longer. Stress is a killer, and the more we suppress it, the more it grows. Be who you are in every moment, nothing more, nothing less…just be you. xxx
Awesome babe! xxx
Hey Em! I woke up today feeling f@@kin miserable……thanks to you my friend….”I feel Beautiful”(Love that bit of film!)and the ‘small guy’what a guy! So…im gonna get up off my ass and be grateful for what I have, smile, and make the most of everyday!sometimes I think we do lose our way but friends like you remind me that im alive and have more things to smile about than to be miserable about! Thanks again love your emergisers xxxx